you are the smell before rain.

elemenopees @ 2009-11-11T11:33:00

2009-11-11T18:34:22Z

tinypaperhearts.tumblr.com

you can find me here from now on.

elemenopees @ 2009-11-01T20:27:00

2009-11-02T03:29:05Z

I need a cigarette.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-28T09:17:00

2009-10-28T16:25:33Z

I had a dream that the government formed a militia that was supposed to kill people (but I can't remember why) and that everyone came to hide at my house except for you! ):

Even in my dreams I'm worrying about you.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-23T23:22:00

2009-10-24T06:23:01Z

I really really really want to learn how to play more than three chords on my guitar.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-23T15:10:00

2009-10-23T22:11:42Z

Last night was good, then great, then bad, then good again.

I have a few fish-eye pictures I'd like to post but my scanner is broken.
):

elemenopees @ 2009-10-19T16:56:00

2009-10-19T23:59:34Z

I'm so excited because Oscar bought tickets for us to see Brand New/Manchester Orchestra on Thursday night! Hooray, I finally get to see Brand New. I'm too excited to talk about it!

Also, Alex messaged me and said that he received my letter and liked the envelope. He said that he even wrote me back when he got it! (:

Today is just such a good day.

I'm at GCC and I have an hour until Rock History class so I'm going to the Student Union for coffee and a sandwich.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-15T10:37:00

2009-10-15T17:37:11Z

I need a fix cause I'm going down.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-14T23:31:00

2009-10-15T06:31:38Z

It isn't the same but I can be different, I promise.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-13T00:53:00

2009-10-13T07:54:51Z

All in all, I've come to decide that everything that's happened in the past two years were all learning experiences that I should come to appreciate at some point. But part of me can't help but to notice the meaninglessness of certain events in life. It's just, can you really find something to learn when people fuck you over, besides don't let it happen again?

I was going through some older posts and I discovered this. I don't remember posting it. I'm not sure how I feel about this.

I wish I hadn't looked through my old entries. All I read were words from when things were good, when we were happy, and from when my life had a purpose.

I've never been so alone.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-13T00:43:00

2009-10-13T07:44:25Z

Livejournal, I'm sorry for sounding like a whiny bitch all the time, but things really aren't okay right now.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-13T00:08:00

2009-10-13T07:10:29Z

All I've ever wanted in my entire life is to be loved by somebody.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-11T21:40:00

2009-10-12T04:42:02Z

I was out until six in the morning today, slept for three hours, and then woke up at nine. Then I ate a special pizza (courtesy of Oscar) and Marlenne and I slept for an hour in my room, then I went to work.

Ahhhh tired.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-08T19:59:00

2009-10-09T03:06:54Z

Who would like to buy me these?

And these?

Pleaaaaase.

(:

elemenopees @ 2009-10-08T10:24:00

2009-10-08T17:37:15Z

This morning I made a bagel and some coffee and enjoyed the lovely weather with Bruce. He tried to drink my coffee and eat my bagel. Sometimes I wonder if all pit bulls share his never-ending appetite.

Last night in Rock History we listened to some music from Pet Sounds by the Beach Boys which was rather enjoyable. I'm fascinated by that album.

Hey, who would rather stay home and sleep rather than go to work today?
Me.

And now, some pictures.

From our Prescott trip. As you can see, I didn't take very many pictures I was too busy enjoying the scenery. (:

This is my bunny. Her name is Blackberry Kush (I didn't name her!). But I just call her Bunny.

Good morning.

Also, I spent ten minutes looking for my Toms while I was getting ready for work only to discover that there is raspberry sherbet on the left one! ): I think it's time for new ones.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-07T23:18:00

2009-10-08T06:18:57Z

I need to live here.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-07T09:43:00

2009-10-07T17:12:21Z

Stinky and I just had an hour long conversation about Bruce assasinating the president. But then I remembered the Patriot Act and now I'm sort of freaked out.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-07T00:17:00

2009-10-07T07:19:00Z

http://www.paulisdeadhoax.com/

I came across this website and I found it really really interesting. I've always wondered where the Paul is Dead theory came from and there seems to be a ton of references to it on most of the Beatles albums. It's worth the time to read the clues.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-06T23:37:00

2009-10-07T06:41:40Z

things i need:

-to lose 30 lbs
-a clean room
-to finish my response paper for Philosophy
-English paper
-pay day
-film prints
-a working car ):
-a typewriter
-more time to write to-do lists

elemenopees @ 2009-10-06T11:22:00

2009-10-06T18:23:20Z

I once had a girl, or should I say, she once had me

I'm waiting for Marlenne to come over and I must say, it's been a pleasant morning so far. I'm enjoying today a lot and I thought I'd let you know.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-05T23:04:00

2009-10-06T06:23:07Z

You wrap your arms around
A feeling that surrounds
Like a liquid peppermint
Just taste the drinks that she served

And this feeling shivers down your spine
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that matters is love, love, your love

You're sleeping in your bed
Just rest your weary head
Maybe you shouldn't care
Throw away those dreams and dare

And I wonder if it matters to me
Love comes in colors I can't deny
All that shimmers is love, love, your love
Your love
Your love

elemenopees @ 2009-10-05T15:23:00

2009-10-05T22:23:28Z

elemenopees @ 2009-10-05T15:12:00

2009-10-05T22:12:31Z

Who else loves Jenny Lewis?

elemenopees @ 2009-10-05T12:20:00

2009-10-05T19:24:18Z

My personality, I've come to find, changes with the seasons. During the summer I am irritable and annoyed all the time. But whenever Fall comes around, I become very optimistic and I am much happier. I never really wondered why this is so, but as I walked around my backyard this morning, I realized that a lot of my happiness comes from being comfortable with my surroundings. And the only time that really happens is during the cold months. So my ultimate life goal, decided today, is to live in Portland, Oregon in a house surrounded by the woods. Only then will I be truly 100 percent happy.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-05T11:27:00

2009-10-05T19:02:07Z

This gets personal, are you ready?
Eh.

How many people did you have sex with in 2006?
Zero.

Coke, crack, heroin, oxy, acid, x, k, peyote, mushrooms, opium...How many have you done?
I'll admit, there's a good chance I'll try mushrooms and acid in the distant future. Not because I'm some weird drug addict; I've just always wanted to do those two. But I've never done any of those drugs before.

Ever paid for sex?
Nope.

If your current bf/gf cheated on you, would you give them a second chance?
I am single but I stopped giving second chances a long time ago.

Ever been married?
No but I'm looking forward to being married one day.

Ever been divorced?
Again, no.

Do you own any guns?
Nope.

Ever been to rehab?
No.

Ever have sex with anyone that you met on myspace?
What? No. Haha.

What celebrity would you want to have sex with?
Adam Brody, Jason Schwartzman, Jess from Gilmore Girls... this list could go on for a while.

Have you been unemployed for over a year since becoming an adult?
No, I've had a job since before I was 18.

How many countries have you lived in?
1.

Do you keep a weapon under or next to your bed at night?
Hahaha. I keep a fondue stick in my bedside table. It's silly but it has two pointed ends and I'm not about to get raped by a madman without putting up a good fight.

What celebrity would you want to beat up if you had the chance?
There's a long list but off the top of my head I'd beat up that Asian guy with the 8 kids, Sarah Palin, Spencer from The Hills and Nicholas Cage for being such a horrible actor.

Ever rolled into the harsh ghetto to buy drugs?
Hahaha no

Ever been paid for sex?
Hell no.

Ever hired a PI to follow someone?
What?? No!

Ever fucked a friends bf/gf?
NO, that's fucked up.

Do you prefer a partner with a tongue/nipple/private piercing?
No, all of those piercings look stupid on men.

Ever watch someone die?
I have not.

Name your favorite Beer?
Corona.

Ever gone to jail for 10 days or longer?
Nope.

Whats your relationship status?
DTF HAHAHAHA

Person you have feelings for shows up at your house, you say?
Hey, you're back from New Mexico.

Last person you talked on the phone with?
Oscar.

Do you think you will have the same best friend a year from now?
I hope so!

Do you have siblings over the age of 21?
Yes.

Will tomorrow be better than today?
We'll see!

You've taken fifteen shots of vodka, what are you doing?
I'm passed out in a pool of my own vomit and my shirt is probably unbuttoned. Mmmm, sexy.
I'm such a light weight, two shots will fuck me up.

What do you currently hear right now?
Get Back by the Beatles

What was the last thing to go into your mouth?
Cup Of Noodles... mmmm...

Does anyone hate you?
I don't doubt it but whatever.

Does your last ex have a job?
He is a waiter.

Relationships or one night stands?
One night stands are gross

Whats something you want really bad right now?
For my car to be fixed!!! ):

Do you usually tell people when you're mad at them?
No but I get pretty hostile toward them so they figure it out.

Honestly, how is your heart lately?
Honestly, I miss being in a relationship but life goes on and everything will be okay in the end.

Do you miss anyone?
I miss Marlenne and Oscar, I haven't seen them all weekend. I miss my sisters, too.

What is stressing you out most right now?
My car ):

Have you ever been called a tease?
Hahaha yes.

Are you waiting for a phone call?
Nope.

What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?
I'd be really angry and upset and I'd cut him out of my life.

Who knows a big secret about you?
I don't really tell anyone anything but Marlenne knows a few things that nobody else does.

You've locked yourself outside and no-one will be home for a few hours, you?
Go for a walk.

What do you think when someone kisses you on your forehead?
It's really nice and comforting.

What do you usually do right when you wake up?
Pee.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I'd hope not.

Do you care if people talk badly about you?
It depends who's talking.

Do you truly hate anyone?
No, I don't think I'm capable of hating anyone.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I used to want a full sleeve but now I'm not sure if tattoos are right for me.

elemenopees @ 2009-10-04T12:39:00

2009-10-04T19:46:46Z

Flow sweetly
Hang heavy

You suddenly complete me